I have an intolerance of boredom. I grew up in an ADD household. My mother has a ferret as a totem. The expression, "Ooooo! Shiny!" should be said in 1/16th of a second. Always.


So imagine that kind of disposition in a tree. Fucking. T.R.E.E.


Boooooooooooooooooooooooooooored!!!!



Yeah, I don't know where I was going with that other than I really need challenges in my life and TV just so ain't it. Work is too much of a physical challenge, and that physical challenge is getting worse. And TV ain't getting any better.

I don't wanna be part of the MARTIX!!! I want to be out in the world, doing real life things like zoos and work and traffic jams and PROBLEM SOLVING>>>>>>> please, please, please.... I'm trapped in this broken body and I'm going insane. I have enough discipline that I'll just stop. It will hurt so much I'll just stop.


I don't know what's wrong but if you'd help me out, I'm willing to work with you to find out. But I am very, very, broken.

Take the ONS out and do an MRI to check for MS. I don't know. That's the best my uneducated mind can come up with.